Something seismic had been released. From deep within me, it had been blindly inching toward the surface. And now it was in the light.
“I know what I deserve now.
I know my mother does not deserve me.
And I do not deserve her.
I know what I deserve now,
because I know myself better.”

You’re going to be just fine. Don’t keep thinking of all the negative details; move forward, not bachwards.
I AM fine (no more “going to be”, which is always in the future).
Even without any physical movement, I have already moved on, for which I am grateful. It’s been hard-earned!
Thanks so much, Ronnie, for hammering away. (Giggle).
G
It’s called an epiphany. Sooner or later it always happens to those who are on a conscious journey towards the light. Congratulations. There will be many more.
Yay! Thanks, John.
G